How easy is it to forgive?

Am i the only one who finds it hard to forgive myself?

The amount of grudges I hold against myself is crazy and my nostalgia doesn’t even help. It just makes matters worse.

Because I can be doing the most random things and what i did 3years ago hits me or an event i let slide and didn’t react to hits me and i’m sad or angry all over again.

I remember saying something I wasn’t meant to say to someone in Junior High. I was so angry with myself I had to pray to God to make the person forget it. I believe the person did forget it because after that day it never came up again till date.

This happened in 2013. We are in 2024, why does my brain still pick on this particular memory every fortnight?!

Forgiving myself is one thing I really need to learn because if I can learn to give others more grace, how much more myself.

I wrote a test i would call the worst thing known to mankind. Till this day i still think of all the wrong options I shaded and i scream internally because what do you mean i picked those answers? What was i thinking?

I can’t free myself yet. Maybe when i see the result I’ll probably be at ease knowing it has already happened.

But thats the thing. I don’t have to keep waiting for specific moments. I have to try to remind myself that I’m human also and I’m capable of making mistakes and i hope you do too🫶🏾

Also you guys should please help a sister by sharing and subscribing and telling a friend and stealing their phones to subscribe and commenting..I’m on my knees🧎🏾‍♀️